A pontoon boat ride around Elkhart Lake last night was a perfect way to reflect and look forward to the continued journey
I realize that each day is really another day in which we take towards another step in our evolution to what we have come here to accomplish. But it was quite evident to me today as I completed another chapter in the editing phase of Through Frankie’s Eyes after receiving the edits back this week from copy editor, Dana.
I had not read through my manuscript since Frankie passed in June. With the manuscript before me it was time to move through the pages and accept and take note of Dana’s suggested changes. I didn’t realize as I began that this would be another step in my healing. What I’ll call the second half of my manuscript, which is about my journey with Frankie, I found myself often blowing my nose and wiping away the tears as I went through the edits on those particular pages.
I’ve had many wonderful memories of Frankie flood my mind the last six weeks, but how fascinating I found it to read what I had written with it all laid out just as the years had occurred. I cried, I smiled, I laughed, and I wished I could hold Frankie and do this all over again… but most of all I feel so lucky to have been the “chosen one.” The one chosen to walk the path I did with Frankie, and to learn all that I did during our time together.
And though I’d give anything to have Frankie in my arms again, I have found a deep peace and understanding that she somehow knew when the time was right to move on. Though I believe strongly we will always be connected, I am beginning to feel ready to love another little one again. I’m turning the corner.. and I know Frankie is behind this decision 100%.
My promise made to John is that I will wait until October 10th, after vacation, to begin my search. So I’ve put my specifications and intentions out into the Universe knowing that all will line up as it is meant to be. And yes, I’ve asked for another little wheelie dog to come into my life. A girl. Short red hair and between the ages of 4-6 (give or take) with a gentle, sweet and loving personality.
I’m ready to take the next step in my journey and having my book to work on helps me… though I’m not exactly sure what other steps I will take. A few weeks ago a friend asked what my future plans are and I said I wasn’t quite sure. She said, “Oh, you are marinating.” I like that! So yes, I am marinating and shall continue to trust that when the marinating process is done I’ll know without question where I am to go from here.