Stunned with Eyes Wide Open

Stunned with Eyes Wide Open
photo credit: ornithology.com

I had just shuffled my way to the bathroom at 6:45 am yesterday morning. And yes, I kind of shuffle, as my feet are usually a little stiff after having slept for the night.

I had just finished expressing Gidget’s bladder (common when you have a dog with IVDD) and was glad it was now my turn.

Half way through my sprinkle and Gidget off to wait by her food bowl, I heard John say, “Barb, come here right away!  You have to see this!”

So much for a full sprinkle. I jumped up from the throne, my eyes still half-mast and my hair sticking up in a few places and into the kitchen I went.

“What is it?”

He grabbed me by the hand and led me out the front door. “It’s the strangest thing,” he said.

Luckily I had thrown on a pair of shorts with my t-shirt I normally sleep in — or that would have been the strangest thing for the neighbors to see.

A storm had just passed through and the grass was soaked as I walked on my tip-toes and John guided me over to the birch tree, still holding my hand.

I could see something in the grass, but couldn’t make out what it was.

“What is it?” I said, worried it was something icky.

Just as we got closer I saw them.

Four soaking wet little birds. They weren’t really baby birds anymore, but a bit bigger.

“Are they alive?” I said.

John said, “I’m not sure.”

Their eyes were wide open, but they weren’t blinking and not moving a feather, leaning up against one another, sticking straight up in the grass.

Looking up into the tree I said, “They must have been blown out of their nest.” Though I wasn’t able to see a nest.

Still not sure they were alive, I bent over closer to look at them and pointed my index finger toward them.

“Don’t touch them!” John said.

“I know. I know. I won’t.”

But as my finger got closer, all of a sudden all four beaks opened. They thought perhaps I was their mama coming to feed them.

I was relieved they were alive.

“They must be in shock from being blown out of their nest,” I said.

John agreed.

I was worried about the little ones, but knew from a phone call to my dad’s wife who serves on wildlife committees, that the DNR wouldn’t do come help them out.

So I had to wait and watch and hope they’d be okay.

Just then, a drenched stray orange striped tabby cat appeared across the street.

Good Lord, I thought. He will find them and eat them for breakfast. Luckily he headed south, likely looking for somewhere to dry off or I would have been the wild-haired, sleepy-eyed neighbor lady running the cat off down the street.

Little by little, each bird began to shake off the raindrops on their wings and began hopping about in the grass. I was relieved but still worried. They also began to spread their wings and attempt short flying trips.

I checked on them periodically and the last time I looked a few moments later, they were gone.

Hopefully they made it out into the world okay.

As for me, I finished my morning sprinkle and after all the excitement my eyes were now wide open too.

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How My ‘She Shed’ Helped Me Reach a Higher Calling- My TV Interview with CBS 58.

CBS 58

If you weren’t able to catch my interview on CBS 58 this morning, here it is as a replay.

My best friend, Victoria, called me this morning after she saw the interview. And what was lost on me for a moment, came into full view when she mentioned the fact that she was reminded of our friendship and the loss of my chocolate Lab, Cassie Jo, ten years ago when she caught the photo of her in the interview.

I wrote about Cassie Jo in a post yesterday. She was the one who inspired me to find the courage to look into my heart to discover I wanted to try my hand at writing….follow my heart…and see where it would take me.

The fact that this piece about my writing cottage, my writing, my books, my animal advocacy, and encouraging others to follow their hearts aired today, a decade later of some pretty pivotal moments in my life…. well, it would be hard to convince me that spirit is not working magic in my life.

It took me many years and lots of hard work on myself to come to a place of acceptance of who I am. I am proud of this story that Reporter Marshanna Hester & Photojournalist, Brian Urbanek, captured so beautifully….and I’m so grateful.

It truly is my hope that this will inspire other women to know it is more than okay to stop each day and find quiet and creativity for themselves.

Maybe a space of one’s own isn’t quite in the cards yet, but a dream for the future — but to find a way in which to honor yourself and your needs right now, in the way you can best fit it in at this time — this is my hope.

I truly believe that when we do, we are better for it — and that is what you take out into the world — and everyone around us benefits.

We all need to find a way to shine our inner light and I encourage you to shine yours starting today.

What a Difference a Decade Does Make

What a Difference a Decade Does Make
Cassie and Frankie

I remembered earlier in the week, but then forgot again.

And it didn’t dawn on me until I caught the date on my Daily Word booklet today.

July 11th.

Then something warm flowed through my whole body and the tears came.

Not sad tears really, but good ones. I walked to the painting I have of you and stroked your fur, talking to you.

A whole decade ago since I said goodbye to my chocolate Lab, Cassie Jo. Bone cancer took her body away from me, but her spirit resides in my heart to this day.

Ten years ago that I also took a leap of faith and hired a life coach (I love you, Diane!). I was 41 years old. The question looming large in my mind then was, “What do I want to do with the rest of my life?”

If only I could have known then what I know now. I wouldn’t have worried. I would have trusted in my faith more.

Though the last ten years have had some very sad moments and hardships, the wisdom I’ve gained, and the journey walked, has been remarkable.

Cassie Jo started it all for me. Her diagnoses of cancer had me examining my own mortality.

I didn’t want to leave this world without making a difference. I wanted to experience more joy and live with more intent and integrity. I wanted to live from the heart of who I truly am.

All because of a dog. Wow. How blessed I am and continue to be.

Thank you my beautiful, brown girl, for being my teacher and now my angel. I rejoice in your life and all the lessons I carry with me that you taught me as some of my greatest treasures.