The Tail that Didn’t Wag.

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When we brought Kylie home as a young pup from a breeder over nine years ago, it wasn’t until several weeks later that John and I realized we had not seen her wag her tail.

It would take a few months before she would wag her tail. We really have no idea why this was.

I recall one day Kylie pushing her way through John’s legs while he was standing in the kitchen. We would come to realize over the months that this is a sign of affection from her. But as she grew and is so strong, you best be prepared when she pushes her way through at knee high level to make sure you hold your ground.

She would never mean to push anyone over, but her zealous way in which showing her love can have you toppling over if you are not careful.  I remember one day when she did this to John and we’d not yet seen her wag her tail. As she stood between John’s legs waiting for a butt rub, he picked up her back end and moved it back and forth encouraging her in a fun way saying, “This is how you wag your tail, Kylie.”

I don’t recall exactly when her tail finally did wag for the first time, but I do remember it happening as both John and I saw it and we excitedly said, “You wagged your tail, Kylie!”

Now it is a fun game with her. Just this morning as she lay on her bed in the kitchen I sat down next to her as my water was heating up for my tea. I pet her for awhile and then said what I’ve come to say often to her as a game, “Does your tail work today Kylie? Does it work?”

Just the tip of her tail will come slightly off the ground, wagging just a wee bit. Then the more I say, “Does your tail work today? Oh, I think I see it working!” it begins to wag bigger and faster.

It is such a sweet time with her and such a fun little game that we play and I relish in these precious moments with her.

One Year Ago Today…

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One year ago today… this loving, adorable little creature graced me with her love and wisdom.

When I adopted Gidget from On My Way Home Dachshund Rescue they weren’t exactly sure how old she was – perhaps between 6 or 7. It is also unclear when her birthday is.

But age isn’t important — it is that we found each other — and so we celebrate today that we came into each others lives and our hearts found comfort and purpose.

A day she found her forever home and the day my heart expanded to love once again. This is a day of celebration.

A day to celebrate all Gidget has been for me. My joy, my laughter, my stillness, my teacher, my guide, my faithful companion, my mirror, my cuddle bug, my strength, my inspiration, and…I could go on forever, really.

It is amazing how one tiny 9 lb. dog can fill a whole room with such brilliant light and huge love. She is one-of-a-kind and I feel incredibly grateful to call her friend.

My Projection of Fear

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I updated my Facebook cover yesterday to this photo above of Kylie and Gidget. Lots of awww’s and priceless comments were made which made me smile.

But it also sprung up a thought for me. I love seeing these two snuggled together. It’s a welcome sight these days. One I’ve not seen in many years.

When Frankie became paralyzed, Kylie was only six months old. I was a nervous wreck that Frankie would rupture another disc and so often I found myself saying no to Kylie when she tried to play or snuggle with Frankie.

Then with Joie, I was a bit more relaxed, but still cautious.

While yes, we have to be careful with these little ones so prone to disc disease, we also have to find a balance of not living on the edge of “what if” all the time.

With Gidget being my third doxie with IVDD, I understand more clearly that this is my projection of fear.

Being aware that this is my issue and not letting fear get in the way is half the battle. While it’s good to be cautious, I also want Gidget and Kylie to feel happy and comfortable with each other. As you can tell by the photo that appears to be the case. Grin.

As I mentioned yesterday, I’ll be going to a weekend training, this weekend. I’m putting into practice not letting fear get in the way of leaving Gidget behind knowing she is in good hands.

John has been awesome learning how to express Gidget’s bladder the last few days, and he is actually doing quite well at it like he’s always done this!

I also have a gal who has her own business taking care of people’s pets who will be stopping over a few times to help with Gidget while I’m away. Gidget did very well with her, and she with Gidget, which helps lessen my fear.

I know it’s natural for me to have this fear because of my past experience in being away and then Frankie became paralyzed. But I also know I want to surrender and let go of living in that fear when I want to step out on my own now and then.

Gidget is once again being a great teacher for me with this. And again, the very reason I call her my Buddha dog. She helps me to be still and move through any fear or doubt and put my faith in the hands of God/Spirit.