My Projection of Fear

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I updated my Facebook cover yesterday to this photo above of Kylie and Gidget. Lots of awww’s and priceless comments were made which made me smile.

But it also sprung up a thought for me. I love seeing these two snuggled together. It’s a welcome sight these days. One I’ve not seen in many years.

When Frankie became paralyzed, Kylie was only six months old. I was a nervous wreck that Frankie would rupture another disc and so often I found myself saying no to Kylie when she tried to play or snuggle with Frankie.

Then with Joie, I was a bit more relaxed, but still cautious.

While yes, we have to be careful with these little ones so prone to disc disease, we also have to find a balance of not living on the edge of “what if” all the time.

With Gidget being my third doxie with IVDD, I understand more clearly that this is my projection of fear.

Being aware that this is my issue and not letting fear get in the way is half the battle. While it’s good to be cautious, I also want Gidget and Kylie to feel happy and comfortable with each other. As you can tell by the photo that appears to be the case. Grin.

As I mentioned yesterday, I’ll be going to a weekend training, this weekend. I’m putting into practice not letting fear get in the way of leaving Gidget behind knowing she is in good hands.

John has been awesome learning how to express Gidget’s bladder the last few days, and he is actually doing quite well at it like he’s always done this!

I also have a gal who has her own business taking care of people’s pets who will be stopping over a few times to help with Gidget while I’m away. Gidget did very well with her, and she with Gidget, which helps lessen my fear.

I know it’s natural for me to have this fear because of my past experience in being away and then Frankie became paralyzed. But I also know I want to surrender and let go of living in that fear when I want to step out on my own now and then.

Gidget is once again being a great teacher for me with this. And again, the very reason I call her my Buddha dog. She helps me to be still and move through any fear or doubt and put my faith in the hands of God/Spirit.