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What I Would Say to My 5-Year Old Self Today.

5 years oldAfter I posted this photo on my Facebook page today for what they call throwback Thursday, I wondered what I’d say to my 5-year old self today.

I’d first tell her I love her and how beautiful she is. How I can see that light in her heart shining so very brightly. I’d tell her to not ever let anyone dim that light.

Be you. Be brave. Be strong. Love you first and the rest will follow as it is meant to be.

Your heart will break, but know that when it does, joy will return again soon. You can’t experience one without the other.

I’d tell her that when boys tease you it’s because they like you (wish I had known that when a little boy named Mark would always pull my pigtails on the playground!).

I’d tell her life isn’t going to be fair, but that I’ll always have a choice about my attitude.

I’d tell her that wisdom will be shared with her through the great teachings of Dog.

I’d tell her she will feel odd and left out at times, but to stand tall in who she is. To own her authenticity. To never play small.

I’d tell her to always pay attention to what her heart is whispering and not let the loud noises of society drown out those whispers.

I’d tell her to always live from the inside, out.

I’d tell her she is safe and she is loved. And always will be.

Almost 50! Bring It On! What Authenticity Means to Me

bring on 50One week from today I will turn the big 5-0!  I’m excited! Let’s do cartwheels!  Ok, maybe not cartwheels. Maybe a somewhat fast, happy dance.

Authenticity to me is taking this photo of myself. I would never have dreamed of doing this years ago for fear of being judged. Who does she think she is taking a photo of herself?  But I’m happy to be alive!

Being authentic to me means many things.

I shall wear a skirt when I want. No special occasion but I just like how I feel when I wear one.

I shall express my joyful self instead of playing small.

I shall share my love of all animals, but especially those in dog wheelchairs.

I shall dance in the kitchen with John even if the neighbors see us through the window.

I shall sing loud in the car even when passing other cars instead of stopping in fear they may think I’m nuts.

I shall follow my heart.

I shall live by my own rules (without breaking the law, of course).

I shall say no to something that does not feel right to me.

I shall be nice to myself as I age.

I shall live my life in a way that is meaningful to me.

I shall express my thoughts and views about things with integrity and grace.

I shall do my best to find new ways to make a difference – big or small.

I shall live my life to the fullest.

Forward March to 50: Five Things You Didn’t Know About Me

I forgot to share my Forward March to 50 post yesterday- which I do the first and third Thursday of each month in celebration to the countdown to my 50th birthday which is July 18.  So here it is a day late. I thought it might be fun to share five things you may not know about me.

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1.  I used to wear my hair REALLY big! Or would that be REALLY tall?  eee gads!

2. I wanted to be a go-go dancer when I grew up.  Ok, so I didn’t really realize what that really was when I announced that to my parents when I was little.  All I knew is I wanted those white boots!

3. I played the flute in highschool and marched in the band.

4. I started dating John (my hubby of almost 29-years) when I was 15 1/2.

5. I told John the first night I was with him that I loved him. Yup, I really did. And it all worked out. And each year I love him in a new and different way.