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Trust the Flow of Life. Kylie’s Still Reminding Me from the Other Side.

Trust the Flow of Life. Kylie's Still Reminding Me from the Other Side.

This is the last photo I took of Kylie. It was five days before we had to say goodbye to her on the day after Thanksgiving. 

I woke yesterday with a very heavy energy though I wasn’t sure why. I dismissed it as perhaps it was due to the weather which was very gray, with low heavy clouds and rain expected along with a possible thunderstorm in the evening.

I had an errand I planned on running in the afternoon. But after trying to get some work done which included prepping for the Animals as Oracles teleseminar this Thursday, nothing was coming together. There was no sense trying to push through as nothing was coming together.

I tried to put my trust in that tomorrow (today) would be better and I just had to allow the next 24-hours to be what they were supposed to be.

I decided to take a break and run my errand sooner, rather than later. Getting back in my car after the errand I noticed there was a message on my phone. It was from the vet clinic letting me know Kylie’s cremains were in. I was only two minutes from the clinic.

My heart thumped in my chest and I took a deep breath. Gidget was in the car with me. I looked at her and softly said, “Let’s go get Kylie and bring her home.”

After I signed the paper that released Kylie’s cremains to me, I picked up the box and walked out the front door to my car. I could feel the tears close to the edge as my lip started to quiver. I wanted more than anything to bring her home in physical form instead of what now remained.

As I drove home, I let the tears come and once home I cried just as hard as the day we said goodbye to her in the vet’s exam room. Crying is healing, so I let it all come out.

I tried to push myself once again and get some work done. But it wouldn’t come. And as it turned out, it wasn’t meant to be as I had some family issues that needed to be addressed also and I needed to take care of that instead.

As I can often do, though I’m much better these days, I did start to go down that rabbit hole of beating myself up that I’d not gotten much done that day. I worried that I wouldn’t be ready for the teleseminar on Thursday and then began to also worry about impending projects coming up soon, too.

But then I stopped. And I reflected on what I’ve learned from Kylie – to trust and go with the flow – and to trust that all would work out as planned.

That evening after taking an Epsom and Himalyan Salt bath, I sat on my over-sized red chair in the living room, the lights on the Christmas tree twinkling in the corner, and between finishing a book about a Christmas story, and watching a storm roll through, I could literally feel the heavy energy leave my body.

Before I closed my eyes last night I silently said, “Tomorrow is going to be a better and more productive day.” And you know what? It indeed has been and I’m so grateful for how it all flowed today. And I’m so excited about talking with Dr. Cara Gubbins and sharing stories about how animals serve as oracles in our lives.

And this is the thing. When we trust in the flow of life and try not to force it, things to seem to always have a way of working out.

And I have Kylie to thank for being a beautiful oracle for me, not only while here on earth, but in Spirit.

There is still time to register for this free teleseminar this Thursday, December 7th at 11am pst/ Noon est/1 pm cst. If you can’t make it live, if you register, a replay will be sent. 

Hope to “see” you on the call!

Much love and gratitude,

Barbara

Oracle Card Reading and Guidance – Grieving the Loss of a Pet

This Oracle card reading and guidance is dedicated to, and in memory of my sweet, yellow dog, Kylie, and two dear friends who recently lost their dog, Ryder, and within days their other dog, Bernie, and to all the animal friends that have made our lives so much richer, fuller, and filled with a love that expands our hearts like no other.

Much love and gratitude,
Barbara

A Deep Stirring of the Heart

A Deep Stirring of the Heart
Just days before Frankie moved on…

I was deeply moved by a post  on author Jon Katz’ blog this morning. So much so, I’m still having tearful moments as I write this.

They aren’t tears of sadness, though some bittersweet. But tears of recognition – of understanding – of having been in this space – and have come away from it profoundly changed.

Jon’s border collie, Red, who so many have come to love, is dealing with an unknown illness right now. A therapy dog who has touched so many lives he is also the spirit dog here at this time marking a passage in Jon’s life.

Having talked with a healer and animal communicator this morning, Jon wrote this:

Kimberly was direct, she told me that my challenge now was to recognize Red’s exhaustion and discomfort, and to give  him the time he needs to rest and to heal.

There was a time in my life when I would not have been able to hear this, I was too broken myself,  but I know Kimberly and trust her, and she simply went to the heart of it with me and with Red.

This stirred my heart with much emotion remembering my work with my paralyzed dachshund, Frankie, who was in a wheelchair, and touched so many lives herself. And without a doubt in every fiber of my being, she came here to help me heal – though I didn’t recognize it at first – and that gift would continue to unfold as we had a shared purpose and mission.

The recognition in realizing I was sensing she was slowing down in 2011 – she was ready to retire. Her time was coming to an end and my life, and our life as I’d come to love it, was about to change. And I didn’t know how I’d go on without her.

But in those last six months, and for months afterwards, the whisper in my heart that didn’t want to surface or admit to was that I too, was ready to slow down and move on. And it was also in learning to let go of what was, and to accept that Frankie wouldn’t live forever, and that I’d be okay.

It opened my heart to understanding more than before that with the gut-wrenching pain of loss, finding our way back to gratefulness of what was, was the whole point of our journey. How blessed I was to have had the opportunities I did with her.

How blessed I was to have this spirit dog, who forever changed my life for the better. It was imperative that I recognize and honor her wish to now retire and live out her days next to my side as I wrote the memoir of our journey.

This too, an enriching gift, of days with her all to myself. To give thanks for all the compassion she not only showed me, but others.

And getting to this place of not wallowing in her passing, but in the bliss that she brought to my life, that her gift lives on… and her spirit fills me each and every time I think of her.

And I’m grateful when my heart gets stirred from a post like Jon’s – a reminder of a time that was excruciatingly difficult, but with time I can now look back and my heart smiles with such joy from the love of Frankie.

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