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The Bliss of the Non-Thinker. Part Two of Abstract Painting Incorporating Oracles.

Yesterday I shared on my blog how I felt out of my comfort zone creating this painting.

It occurred to me later in the day around 5 pm that it would be interesting to incorporate pulling an oracle card to see what message my first ever abstract painting had for me.

I’m sure you know by now my love of oracle cards. It’s my almost daily ritual to gain deeper insight into myself, plus I enjoy helping other’s do the same through my oracle card reading service.

This morning I set the painting in front of me and asked what message it had for me. I pulled a card from The Wisdom of the Oracle and received the card, Thinker. I chuckled quietly to myself.

As I shared yesterday I learned to move through the process of the painting. I’m now learning to just be with it and let it speak to me. It was all about getting out of my analytical mind and just feeling it.

The essential meaning of the card is: strategy; being analytical and logical. But I went with what I felt as I pulled that card and softly chuckled to myself. There are times for being just what the essential meaning of thinker is, but then there are times when it is the opposite as it was for me.

I wrote this in my journal:

The process of this abstract was about letting go of that overactive thinking mind of mine. Rest your eye and your mind. Relax into the colors. Just be with what is. Relax your weary wings that sometimes feel burdened when you try to analyze or find purpose in everything. Allow the universe to move through you with no agenda. Sink into the here and now and simply observe as your thoughts float away into nothing and into bliss.

I also received some fun, insightful and lovely comments on my post and on Facebook, plus some synchronistic moments about the painting. This just added to additional insight that feels so rewarding and fulfilling. Thank you!

P.S. I’ve decided to call this painting Blissful Non-Thinker.  🙂

XO,

Barbara

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The Making of a Prayer Box and The Water Horse

The Making of a Prayer Box and The Water Horse

This past Sunday I spent the afternoon collaging and painting an old wooden box into a prayer box while watching The Water Horse – Legend of the Deep. 

As I mentioned a few blog posts ago, I have some family members and a dear friend going through some health challenges right now. It has left me feeling helpless at times and wondering what it is I can “do” to be of support.

The thing is, I know we must each walk our own journey and that we must also honor each person’s journey even when we feel like we wish there was something we could do to take away their challenging time. Balancing our own needs with wanting to help and respecting the dignity and choices of other’s can be a fine line to walk. 

Earlier this year going through a dark night of the soul myself, I came to feel Spirit envelop me for the first time in my life. I continue to be more comfortable with saying Spirit as I see this higher power as this swirling, right beside me, within and outside of me, as energy rather than sometimes labeled as male and/or God. But I came to understand that Spirit, even in those dark moments, was there for me.

And what if what my family members and my friend who are going through this difficult time could come to this same feeling and understanding of Spirit as I did this year? I’d certainly want that for them. Maybe that is how I can best support them and hold this in my heart and in my prayers.

And so the idea of creating this prayer box was born…I didn’t have any idea of what it would look like when it was complete, but just followed what felt right as I dug through decorative papers, paints, and pictures from magazines.

While I still think I may add something to it, though not sure what that is yet, I posted a photo of it on Facebook with this note: Spent the afternoon collaging this wooden box as a prayer box. With many I know going through a difficult time right now, I will add each of their names to the box as a way of holding space, love, light and peace for each of them.

Ronnie left a comment: Beautifully created…sincere& beautiful wishes. But how does light get into a closed box?

I found the question so intriguing! And so I thought for a few moments and wrote: It’s the light within each of our hearts – that when we say a little prayer filling our whole being with the light of Spirit, that we wish for the person we are praying for to be filled with that light, too.

I can’t help but think of the movie I was watching also while collaging this prayer box. The movie’s description of what it is about in case you’ve not seen it: On the shore of Loch Ness, Scotland, Angus (Alex Etel) finds an unusual egg. When it hatches, it releases an unexpected surprise: a water horse, the legendary creature from Scottish mythology. While the boy tries to keep its existence hidden from his mother (Emily Watson), he and his new pet, Crusoe, quickly become inseparable. But as the water horse grows larger, eventually becoming the fabled Loch Ness monster, Angus must protect his friend from those who would want to do it harm.

We’d do anything to help those we love to not suffer or come in harms way. While we can do what we can and be of support, we have to trust that this is their journey to walk as it is each of ours. And so it was with Angus, who loved that water horse he named Crusoe, with all his heart. But in the end it was for the highest good to allow Crusoe to continue his journey in his sea home that was best for him and it was that Angus could not travel with him as his  home is on land.

But it didn’t mean he didn’t love Crusoe any less — but all the more — for he loved Crusoe so much he set him free to swim the journey he was meant to.

XO,

Barb

 

We Are Not Broken

I Am Not Broken
Print by Cherie Burbach, “God Saw Her As Beautiful.”

I have a feeling this art piece will resonate with many. It certainly did for me when I saw it last week. Since learning about this local artist earlier this summer, Cherie Burbach, I’ve been following her work. Her passion for life and art come shining through!

When I saw this piece on her Facebook page, my heart caught in my throat for a quick moment, but then love and warmth flooded over me.

In the middle of the girl’s chest it says, “she saw herself as broken.” I was this girl for such a long time. And I know many have, and still do, feel this way.

This last year I feel as if I’ve busted through leaving behind seeing myself as broken. No more. I’ve taken back my power.  And while it was a rocky road to travel, I feel blessed for the lessons learned – and this pivotal teaching came to me because of a 10 pound darling little dapple dachshund you likely know if you’ve followed me here on my blog for awhile now. Yup, you guessed it…Miss Gidget! I continue to work on my newest memoir, I’m Fine Just the Way I Am sharing the journey her and I have traveled. Hint of insight: Gidget was never broken either even though I thought she may have been.

So when I saw this painting, I just knew I had to have it. It hit me dead center with love and truth right in my heart. I remember clearly the day I felt what other’s have experienced, though I had never before. While I’ve always believed in the conceptual fact there is a God, I had a hard time seeing God as a man in a white beard. I see God as a vast, glorious, energy.

This past early spring when I felt as if I might have a nervous breakdown, I surrendered to Spirit and asked for guidance. I didn’t beg, but just simply stated I was ready, and that I would listen to what it was I needed to do.

And it was the next day I was guided, and even though it felt scary, I took the steps I needed to, to release a past pain I’d carried with me for over two decades. And when I did, I felt Spirit. It’s something that I can’t even find adequate words to express, but it was a feeling unlike I’d ever had before. 

When this print arrived today, I didn’t realize the other message embedded within it. I find it so interesting as it is written on the throat of the portrait and says, “be you ’til full.” 

Isn’t that beautiful?! That is what we are here to do…to be our full selves!

Looking up the definition of the throat Chakra as I know it is related to using our voice it says: 

The throat chakra is the voice of the body. It is a pressure valve that allows the energy from the other chakra to be expressed. If it is out of balance or blocked it can affect the health of the other chakras.

It’s through using our authentic voice to living in a way that matters to each of our souls is what “be you ’til full” is all about! If we don’t express our pain it blocks the way for true joy.

And for me, feeling Spirit embrace and hold me that day, and since then, I knew that Spirit always saw me as beautiful — and it was me that had to get out of my own way.

So I share this today in hopes that you too will find a way, if you feel broken, to see yourself as the Divine does – because it’s true – you are beautiful just the way you are. 

XO,

Barb

P.S. If you are interested in a copy of this print for yourself, you can find it, and other prints, by Cherie here.

P.P.S. I’m not an affiliate. I just truly enjoy sharing the creativity of others.