spiritual

Truth Be Told

Welcome to November! The winds blow, the days grow shorter…and it’s the perfect time to go within.

This picture is from one year ago when we visited eastern Tennessee…oh how this tugs at my heart strings to be here again.

It’s also that time of year where perhaps you may be feeling the impending weight of obligations that are ahead with the holiday season.

Recently, I came across this quote that had me reflecting about when we say yes, when we actually mean no and how that can set us up for living a less than joyful and meaningful life. 

It’s that old conditioning we’ve bought into, right?  My whole summer has been about unlearning so much of what I’ve been conditioned to believe, and putting more into practice what truly feeds my soul.

Just last week someone I loved asked me something that I had said yes to a few years ago. But I’ve since come to a new place in my life. So I needed to be honest and tell the truth that it no longer worked for me.

Interestingly enough, every morning for the past three weeks, I’ve been meditating and pulling an Oracle card from The Wisdom of the Oracle deck, and then journaling what comes up for me.

Just that morning, I pulled the Truth Be Told card, and here I was a few hours later being put to the challenge to do just that.

It was difficult because I didn’t want to cause hurt feelings. And honestly, for a time after, those old patterns of believing I needed to feel guilty crept in.

But the reality? When we say yes and really mean no, we carry this burden and negative feelings that build into resentment….and a resentment that eats away at us which can manifest in unhealthy ways.

Does the quote, “I am under no obligation to make sense to you” now make more sense? When we speak our truth we literally feel lighter in our bodies and our hearts rejoice in freedom…even when it may not make sense to someone else.

But when we don’t speak our truth we carry an unnecessary burden that weighs us down, causing us to live a less than meaningful life. Not good for you and not good for those around you.

Referring to The Wisdom of the Oracle booklet the line that stood out for me for Truth Be Told?…

Be authentic and gloriously flawed, and Spirit will answer with miracles.

As we do this work of stepping more into who we truly are, we need to be gentle with ourselves. And know that we aren’t alone…and that we are all a work in progress.

Lastly, to expand on this, I turned to the Power Animal and Soul Coaching oracle cards to find out what more we need to know to live our truth which is below in my video oracle guidance reading.

Much love and gratitude,

Barbara

What More Do We Need to Know About Not Making Sense To Others?

 

A Welcome Surprise Creating My Own Mala Beads

What a treat I gave myself yesterday by taking a Mala Intensive class at JSM BeadCoop with teacher Mary Jo Zagozen. My mom also joined me which was such a special way to spend time together.

What I really appreciated about this class, besides making our own personal mala’s, was all the information given to us during the class and in the handouts that I devoured with eagerness last night.

I’m really beginning to grasp that there are so many ways in which one can practice being mindful. I’ve certainly discovered that in my yoga practice, forms of meditation I do, creating SoulCollage cards, and working with oracle cards, which are part of my rituals.

What I didn’t expect yesterday was how meditative it would be in actually creating my mala beads. From choosing our beads, of which I chose honeycomb agate as I was drawn to the softness of the color which I paired with sandalwood beads which are about compassion and courage, and are traditionally used in making mala’s.

In the traditional mala, 108 beads are used, of which there are many fascinating reasons why. Just to share a few here that I learned and found interesting:

  • There are said to be 108 earthly desires in humans.
  • Some say humans have 108 feelings; 36 related to the past, 36 related to the present, and 36 related to the future.
  • The chakra centers are where energy lines intersect, and there are said to be 108 energy lines which meet to form the heart chakra. One of them, sushumna leads to the crown chakra, which is the path to self-realization and enlightenment.
  • The number 1 represents God or higher Truth, 0 represents emptiness or completeness in spiritual practice, and 8 represents infinity or eternity.

There are oodles of other reasons that I could share here as I was in awe of all the connections with 108! But back to my discovery of it being meditative in actually making my mala.

Placing a knot after each bead, at first, I thought would “take too long.” My desire to get my mala made so I could get using it, was first and foremost on my mind. But as I began to make the knots and place bead by bead on the string, I was moved to a peaceful place within. It was so relaxing! I truly didn’t expect this to happen because oftentimes when creating I’m too busy looking ahead to the finished result.

What a welcome respite of knotting and connecting with each bead as I put together my mala. Just writing about this I feel myself transported to the calmness of the experience again.

And another leap for me when I used my mala beads in meditation this morning. I’ve never been able to mediate in silence. I either have earbuds in listening to something on the Insight Timer app or I pick a soothing station on Pandora to listen to while I sit.

But today I took my mala beads in hand with no music. With my mantra I gave thought to this morning which is something I am working on for myself, then closing my eyes, and bead by bead I ran my middle finger and thumb across each bead pulling my mala beads toward me, repeating silently to myself my intention.

When I was at the end where the “guru” bead sits, a wave of gratitude washed over me as that bead is not to be gone over, but rather used to take a moment to thank our teachers and/or higher spirit.

Now I’m looking forward to making more mala beads for myself – not only for the beauty of them, but really for the fact that I was pleasantly surprised by the double meditative process of it – once in creating and then in using them.

And one last thing, besides getting yourself to a Mala bead class if this calls to you, which I have a feeling JSM BeadCoop will offer again as it was a big hit, is a great book about how mala beads helped change one authors life, check out The Magic Mala by Bob Olson.

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