As I shared in an interview I did on Tuesday which will air in October during the Animal Communication Summit, I believe we heal in layers. The animals have certainly been my guides time and time again helping me through each layer.

This past spring I’d come to realize I’d not fully mourned the fact I’ll never have children in this lifetime. While I’d thought I’d healed this fully, there were still lingering fragments. Another layer was calling to be released.

As I took the time to really be with this and allow more feelings to move through me, it was one day I was sitting in my meditation chair that I witnessed a sparrow perched in the shrub outside my studio window. Her beak full of nesting materials, she was getting ready to take flight to a nearby birdhouse to fluff her nest.

This released a flood of emotions as tears rolled down my cheeks. Motherhood, such a sacred and beautiful endeavor, but not all are called to fulfill this purpose. In a culture that highly values Motherhood, as I do also, it has been difficult at times to not “fit in” in this way.

But through another layer of grieving I landed in a much more peaceful place and have accepted that it wasn’t meant to be.

Through this process I felt called to write down what I was feeling. And from that came a poem (below.) Also from that came the idea to create a 3-dimensional piece of animal oracle art which I sold to a lovely woman who also didn’t have children. Kindred spirits are we in this way and I know many others can relate too.

And now, I’ve created an 8 x 10 print combining the art and the poem that is available here on my website.

Gazing out the window

allowing another layer

of grief

to come to the surface

and move through me

without constraint

for the children

I will never have

is when I saw her.

A Sweet Sparrow

perched on the branch

of a tree not yet in bloom

her beak full

of nesting materials.

Soon to take flight

back to her home

to build a nest

for the impending birth

of her tiny fledglings.

Who after weeks of motherly love and care

will take flight

into the world

to explore, and if meant to be

will create new life too.

And Mama Sparrow

having completed her sacred task

of adding to this earth

the exquisite beauty of life

leaves a loving legacy

that not every being is

called to do.

And the tears

roll down my face

for what I won’t experience

in this lifetime.

But then a realization

that just like

the gamut of

different species

of birds

are the profusion of

emotions that can take

space in our psyche

holding us hostage

until we find the courage

to really feel them

and then let them go.

That we come to understand

we too

those without children

leave a legacy

in our own unique way

that also adds to the

the universe in a beneficial

and beautiful way too.

©Barbara Techel

XO

Barb

It’s been awhile, but today I have a video I recorded sharing wisdom from the animals for this New Moon in Leo.

The paper collage lion above is something I made earlier this summer when I felt like creating just for the sake of creating. I had so much fun making her and took great delight in posing her out in my garden this morning too.

I hope you will enjoy the reading, as well as, take some time for reflection for yourself with the three prompts I provided in the description box of the video. Let me know how it goes! I’d welcome hearing from you.  xo, Barb

If you don’t see the video box below you can also click here to go to my YouTube channel.