amazing grace equine sanctuary

Occasional Paws Feature Story: Amazing Grace Equine Sanctuary

Erin and one of her beloved horses

On the outskirts of Elkhart Lake is an equine sanctuary with six horses, two dogs, and one horse loving woman named Erin.  Supporting Erin’s hopes and dreams is a gentle man beside her named John.

Originally the dream of Erin’s sanctuary was to have been built in Waycross, Georgia.  She had purchased a piece of land one hour away from where her mom lived, and Erin was ready to pursue her heart’s calling. 

Erin’s step-dad and mom both shared in the dream of the horse rescue.  Her step-dad planned to build the facility, and her mom would be the bookkeeper.  In late 2006 her mom, who was also her best friend, suffered a stroke.  As her mom slipped away in May 2007 Erin’s dream of the sanctuary went with her also.  She felt there was no longer a reason to move to Georgia.  With her mom now gone, Erin could not gather the strength to move forward.

Luckily for Moki, Storm, Skye, Nallah, Miss U and Trigger, all horses now under the tender care of Erin, she found the courage a year later to pursue her passion and began her sanctuary in Hartford, Wisconsin. 

It was Miss U that became the first horse to find Erin, which would put the dream of the equine rescue back in motion.  The first time Erin met Miss U she said, “My body tingled all over. It was so surreal.  I just knew this was what I was meant to do.” 

Erin began the work of completing the many pages of paperwork to become an official non-profit entity.  This task alone could make anyone not want to pursue this endeavor, but now Erin had Miss U, along with the spiritual presence of her mom, guiding her.  On New Year’s Day 2010 she and the horses moved to Elkhart Lake to be with John.

I asked Erin, “Why did you want an equine sanctuary?” 

She shared with me when she turned 40, she began some soul searching, wondering what her purpose was.  She was surrounded by horses her whole life, breeding, boarding and showing them for a living while her two sons were growing up. Though she loved being around horses, this was not the way in which she felt was her life’s calling.

It took a few years to figure out what it was that she felt she was meant to do.  She knew it had to be something around horses because of her deep love for them.  It was then that she realized she was meant to nurture, love and care for them, especially those who are neglected, abused or unwanted.

Having a sanctuary she felt could bring awareness to educating others about the care of these large animals, and the commitment it takes.  Just like dogs and cats, too often, they are brought into our lives without consideration of the time, money and caring it takes. Erin says, “Making a commitment should carry the same weight as marriage to another person.”

She also wants to be able to give back and help horses heal that have been through difficult and traumatic situations. Erin can relate because her childhood was filled with mental, physical and sexual abuse.  Through years of therapy, as well as being around horses, Erin healed. 

Though some family and friends have difficulty understanding Erin’s drive to have a sanctuary, she did not let that stop her.  Sure, now and then she would question if this was the right thing to do. But something in her knew this was meant to be.

Erin is woman of immense faith in God, though one morning she awoke to a dreadful case of the doubts when she was in the process of beginning the sanctuary.  The thoughts were looming large in her mind. 

She believes in signs from up above, and pleaded for reassurance that she was on the right path.  As she sat down to eat breakfast she opened up Hooved Animal Humane Society magazine.  She gasped as she saw a picture of the saddest and most soulful horse she had ever seen. Sadly, the horse was euthanized due to so many traumas.

Erin said, “It just took my breath away.”  She could not get the haunting image out of her mind as she drove to work.

Before going into work, she opened up her mail which she had picked up on the way.  Interestingly enough there was an envelope from her aunt Pat, who she rarely talked with or saw.  Inside was a letter with a full page editorial about a woman in Pat’s area who rescue’s horses.

Erin said, “I just cried because I knew this was my sign.”

The doubts have taken a back seat, as Erin moves full speed ahead with Amazing Grace Equine Sanctuary.  Before her mom passed away she never really believed you could connect with loved ones on the other side.  She has come to strongly know there is a higher purpose at work.  She feels her mom with her every step of the way. 

Understanding we are being guided, Erin named the sanctuary Amazing Grace, because it is so fitting for the invisible forces that are always at work around us.

Mascot of the sanctuary is Moki, a disabled horse, who was mentally and physically abused.  He came to live with Erin in November 2009.  Erin gave all of her heart and love to this horse, who stands prouder than any horse I have ever seen.  Much has been done to help Moki, but the answer to easing his suffering now lies in helping him cross to the other side. Erin is now gathering the courage to help Moki gallop free of pain. She knows her mom will be waiting with open arms to care for him until they all meet again someday. 

A piece of my heart is with Erin and Moki as they prepare to say their final goodbye.  But I just have to believe Moki found Erin because she is the angel who will give him the best gift of all in setting him free.

The sanctuary is slated to make its permanent home on the corner of Highway 57 and County Trunk FF in the upcoming weeks.  It is where Erin sees herself living life to the fullest, with fiancé’ John at her side, dogs Georgia and Synders as her furry companions, and the horses who she will continue to heal, nurture, and love with all her heart.

Watch for information on an upcoming open house and fundraiser in the fall of 2010 to see how you can help support Amazing Grace Equine Sanctuary.  Donations are appreciated to ensure the health of the horse sanctuary, and can be made on the website at www.amazinggraceequinesanctuary.com

UPDATE:  This story is dedicated to the memory of Moki.  On March 26th, 2010 Erin made the very difficult decision to release Moki to the other side. She asked me and two other friends to be there with her to give her the strength to say goodbye.  To be a part of Moki’s crossing over was more difficult that I had anticipated… but seeing him free of not only his physical pain, but mental anguish as well, made my heart happy for him. In my mind I see him galloping in the wind of eternal freedom where no one can ever hurt him again… and grateful that Erin helped him be the horse he always wanted to be…she set him free and I believe she was the angel he needed to give him that ultimate gift.

MOKI

Moki the Disabled Horse of Amazing Grace Equine Sanctuary

Today I met Moki, who sadly has had a rough life and he is only seven years old.  As you can see in the pictures his front legs are severely deformed.  Erin, of Amazing Grace Equine Sanctuary  rescued him just this past December after years of living in a very small penned in area, and suspicion of being taunted and teased by a young boy and never being properly taken care of.

The sanctuary is new to the small town of 1200 that I live in.  Finding out about them and Moki I contacted Erin to ask if I could write a story about the sanctuary for our local paper to hopefully bring attention to her beautiful mission in rescuing unwanted, abused and neglected horses.  I especially wanted to meet Moki, since my heart gravitates towards animals with disabilities.  We set a date of Feb. 20th for me to come out to the sanctuary and interview her.

Well, two hours later that same day I received an email from her that Moki’s recent diagnoses from the vet was not good.  He has severe arthritis in his legs and is in extreme pain.  Erin was advised the humane thing to do is to euthanasia Moki.  Erin, understandably beside herself, said she would understand if I didn’t want to do the story now.

Well, I could not get them out of my mind.  Not wanting to intrude on her precious time  left with Moki, but feeling this knowing that I had to meet both of them, I emailed Erin the next day asking if I could still meet Moki.  She was grateful.

So 15 degrees, but sunny today, I dressed in layers and headed to the sanctuary.

Moki was out in the pasture and Erin and I were inside in front of the stall.  Erin called for him and told me he is very afraid of people and would run in the pasture if we came out there.  Soon enough he peeked his head around the corner and cautiously approached.  Erin had a bag of carrots waiting and she handed me one to feed him.  I was so happy he approached so close, but I remained still so as not to frighten this poor, sweet horse who really trusts no humans.

To look at Moki and his large black eyes and his soft winter coat, and oh, so tall, I wanted to hold him in my arms and apologize for all the wrong that was done to him.  A few moments later, after a handful of carrots he trotted back out to the pasture.

Erin and I made our way out to the pasture a few moments later to see the other horses.  At one point I looked to where Moki was standing to see him standing so proud looking out into the field… and I wondered what he was thinking.  But I could just feel his pride in who he is, standing tall, despite his crooked legs.  I had to squeeze my eyes shut to keep back the tears.

Erin struggles with having to let him go, never having had to put a horse down before… wishing she could have saved Moki as she said in an email to friends.  I told her I do believe God sent Moki to her to save him, just not in the way she had planned.  His body is wracked with pain and his mental state is not stable because of the neglect, so he lives in constant fear.  To let him go, to run free without pain, will be the way she will save him.  So as her heart breaks, she knows this is the right and best thing to do for Moki.  As we discussed, along with having an animal is the responsibility of saying goodbye, and for the animal letting them go with grace and dignity.

Please send your love and prayers in thought to Erin or via her email through her website.  I know she would appreciate the support…

Stay tuned in the next few weeks as I will bring you the full story of the sanctuary…