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I Witnessed True Love Today

Laverne and Suzie’s first Christmas together

This afternoon I helped a dear sweet lady, Laverne, who is 85 years old, say goodbye to her Dalmatian, Suzie.

I used to belong to a Pet Support Group helping others in their grief when they lose a pet. That is where I met Laverne. At the time, she had just lost her 6th Dalmatian and she needed help getting through her grief. Laverne loves Dalmatian’s and it is the only breed she has ever had.

Laverne came to the meetings each month for the next 3 months and announced at the third meeting that she’d really like another Dalmatian, but didn’t know if she should. She was 80 years old at the time and feared she may not out live another Dalmatian… but oh, how she wanted another one to love.

So the wheels were set in motion and with the help another friend, I was able to find an older Dalmatian for Laverne from Save Our Spots Dalmatian Rescue. They were not 100% sure, but thought Suzie was around 5 years old.

It was one of the best feelings knowing Laverne now had another dog in her life to care for and love. I went to visit her and Suzie a few weeks later to see how they were doing. All was well and happy. We then went on with our lives.

Two days ago Laverne called me to tell me she would be putting Suzie to sleep today. Suzie was not doing well and it was time, she told me. She said, “You were so kind to find Suzie for me and I wonder if you could be there for me when I say goodbye.” I told her I would.

I drove to the vet today thinking about Laverne and all the Dalmatian’s she has loved. I smiled thinking of all the “spots” she will see when she gets to heaven some day. But still my heart ached for her soon to be loss.

When I arrived Laverne was already in the exam room with Suzie and her good friend, Lloyd. She met him three years ago after his wife had passed away. They became friends.

Laverne cried when she saw me and we hugged. She thanked me again for finding Suzie for her and told me how much it meant to her. I said, “You are so welcome, Laverne. Suzie was so lucky to have you.”

I knelt down by Suzie and pet her and thanked her for being so good to Laverne.

Laverne did not want to be in the room when the vet euthanized her, so Lloyd stayed with Suzie. Laverne and I waited in the waiting room.

Laverne shared with me that if it was not for Lloyd it was likely she could not have had Suzie as long because Suzie had been declining in health for quite a few months. It was hard for her to go up steps, so Lloyd helped her get in and out of the house often. She told me how wonderful Lloyd was and how glad she was that he lived with her.

To lighten the mood a bit I said with a slight smile, “Laverne, you mean to tell me you are shacking up with him?”  She laughed.

She talked some more about Suzie as I held her hand and just let her talk. She said she didn’t know how to thank me for getting her Suzie and for being there for her. But I said, “I know how much it means to you, Laverne and I was happy to help you and happy to be here for you today.”

A few moments later Lloyd walked into the waiting area. He held Suzie’s leash and collar in his hands. His face looked so sad. He looked at Laverne and without saying a word they both started to cry and hug each other. Though I felt at such a loss for their pain, I also saw in that moment true love… and it was deeply touching.

I felt better knowing Laverne has Lloyd to help her in her grief as she mourns the loss of Suzie. And what an honor it was to have been a part of Suzie’s new life at the beginning, placing her with Laverne, and now at the end.

Rest in peace sweet Suzie….

Saying Goodbye to Two Dear Animal Friends: Part One

The past few weeks have been a bit difficult with two dear animal friends in my life who went to the Rainbow Bridge.  It is oh, so hard, to lose our own, but I’ve lost two critter friends that were like family to me.  Though my heart breaks for the loss of each of them, I feel so blessed to have had each of them in my life.

So I say goodbye to Sunshine and Kirby.  Today I share Sunshine with you and Wednesday, the 26th I will share Kirby.

SUNSHINE


Sunshine, the handsome, regal, Maine Coon Cat who was one of the most loving cats I have ever known. Early today, while in my mom’s arms, he took his last breath.  He was only 7-years old. He was my mom’s cat and the best kitty brother a girl could ever ask for.

For quite a few years every winter for 6-8 weeks Sunshine would stay with me while my mom and her husband were in Florida.  He always made himself perfectly at home and I loved that he felt so comfortable with us.

One year he stayed with me a few months after I had lost my cat Dani, so it was so comforting to have a cat hang out with me in my big chair when I read.  He and Frankie just loved to snuggle and play together!

(I always loved this photo of the two… as if Frankie is saying, “Mom can we PLEASE keep him?  I love him so much!)

Frankie was head over heels in love with Sunshine!  And it is because of Sunshine that nine months after Frankie’s IVDD diagnoses, that she begin to try and walk.  She so wanted to be wherever Sunshine was, so when not in her wheelchair she started to “hop” like a rabbit to be near him.  I attribute her on and off hopping to this day to Sunshine.  Thank you so much, Sunshine.

Sunshine was diagnosed with kidney disease a few months ago and my mom thought she would have more time with him yet, as kidney disease can progress slowly.  But in a recent exam tough news came that Sunshine had an enlarged heart with a blood clot that could move at any moment.  He would be leaving sooner than we anticipated.

I asked if I could please come say goodbye.  He was a part of me and my life and I just needed to let him know I loved him one more time.

Saying goodbye to Sunshine with my mom’s dogs, DollyJo (left) and Charley looking on.

My mom said Sunshine was spending most of his time in his bed since his heart disease diagnoses and was not eating much. The day I visited he let me hold him.  Then he sat near my chair and I felt as if he knew I was there to say goodbye.  I held him one more time and then he decided it was time to head back to his bed.

So as yesterday came towards a close and my mom grappled with making the right choice for Sunshine, he no longer would take food or water.  And my mom said as she looked into his eyes she saw he was no longer “here.” She knew it was time.  She had a dream that night that Sunshine was with his sister Missy in heaven.  As she got to the vet and was waiting in the vet room to have him put to sleep, she was holding him, when he died in her arms.

Though it so hard to say goodbye there is such comfort and peace that came from the signs that appeared to help my mom know it was ok.

We all want to know when it is the “right time” and so often there is no answer to that question even when we look to others for guidance. It is something we must open our hearts to, though we know it will cause great pain… but that pain means we love and we feel joy and are so alive. And for me, I wouldn’t trade any of it… the love, the joy, the pain, and the heart break.

Sunshine was truly a beautiful soul.  I wish everyone could have known him.  He was one of a kind, and will be greatly missed.  But my dear little Maine Coon friend, I feel you in my heart, swishing that magical tail of yours against my heart strings, and I know you will always be with me… and with all those who loved you.

Many blessings to you in your new journey, my friend.  I’ll take good care of Mom till we all meet again.

For more information on cardiac problems in Maine Coon cats, which is on the rise, here is an article discussing this disease.

Saying Goodbye to Miss Willow who Inspired Waggin Tails Cookies


Losing a beloved pet can be so difficult.  Add the holiday season and add a pet who inspired you to live your passion, and the loss becomes magnified.  Any loss of a pet is hard and for each of us, we grieve in our own, unique way… and just when we think we are ready to go through this, we find we are not.  So is with my friend, Barbara who is struggling with the recent loss of her dog, Miss Willow.  I don’t think we are ever ready and especially with a friend, such as Miss Willow, and as all dogs do, they love us unconditionally. Not having that presence every day is a big hole in our heart.  And it will take time to accept, look for the new realm of being together, and moving forward… and knowing whatever time that takes is perfectly OK.

Miss Willow was not expected to live to the ripe old age she did, because at eight years old she was diagnosed with cancer.  Barbara would not accept it was the end and did all she could to bring Miss Willow back to health.  Indeed she did, which inspired Waggin Tails Cookies, which are wholesome gourmet cookies…. and wait till you read the age Miss Willow reached.  A testament to good food, positive thinking and lots of love.

My heart goes out to Barbara as she finds her way without Miss Willow… though I know without a doubt, Miss Willow is right beside her in spirit and will continue to be for as long as Barbara needs her.  I received notice of Miss Willow’s death yesterday from Barbara and asked her if I could share her moving, beautiful note with you, my readers.  She graciously agreed.

A SAD DAY

Miss Willow that inspired the Liver Cookies of Love left us today.  She was born March 25, 1994 and left us December 1, 2009.  A good run to be sure.  I was told over 8 years ago to take Willow home that the cancer left us no hope and to prepare for her to die.  Well, she did not listen.  She was the light of my life and she just got too tired now.  She was almost 16 years old.  She inspired me to make these wonderful cookies.  She taught me how to feed my dog and how to clean my home.  She helped so many other animals that had cancer.

I will forever be grateful for all that we shared and all that she taught me.  She went quietly this morning and I have to say that the Vet was so supportive and caring.  There were flowers and a blanket and candles.  It was as sweet as a horrible moment could be.  I know that she is now again dancing in a young new body and not trapped in the frame of an elderly dog.

I loved you best of all Miss Will..and I always will.  Please hold us all in your prayers as we learn how to do life without Willow here in the form she was this morning.  I know that she will always be with us and I hold her in my heart and give thanks for all the blessings that came from her.

In loving memory to my sweet Willow.