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Growing with My Tree Goddess – A Curious Unfolding.

Growing with My Tree Goddess - A Curious Unfolding
My tree goddess painting in progress….

I didn’t plan to ever paint. Nor did I think I’d ever start painting and then perhaps want to write about the process.

And I don’t really know where this will all take me. Will I keep painting? Or will I only be interested for awhile and then stop?

I’m thinking I may keep going for at least a little while as now I keep seeing images for ideas of things I want to try and paint!

This has been the most curious unfolding on many levels.

One being that I’ve realized that when I’m painting my mind becomes very quiet.

This is so unusual (but welcoming) since I’m one who is always thinking otherwise (sometimes it can drive me crazy!) — and I think mostly around what I’m going to write about in the book I’m working on right now, future ideas, or what I’m going to write for my blog or weekly newsletter– along with all the many other thoughts that goes through one’s head in any given day.

But when I get out the paints and the brush hits the canvas, it’s like I melt into this silent world.

I painted for a few hours this morning but then the warm sunshine was too hard to ignore and I had to get outside and walk.

And guess who was on my walk with me?  Yup, my tree goddess.

I’ve been so intrigued lately by the goddess archetype and am learning to embrace and honor the goddess in me.

I love that I am more grounded now in my 50s, than when I was in my 20s and 30s. I enjoy that I consciously choose to live in more awareness especially with how nature, when out in it, is such a profound healer.

Like my tree goddess in progress, I too, am a goddess in progress. I’m learning to awaken on new levels each and every day and decade of my life.

I want to be that old oak goddess tree someday that stands strong with the test of time filled with much wisdom.

So I never thought I’d paint. But I’m not going to spend much time wondering why, but just enjoy the process.

I still have much to do on this tree goddess, but it’s fun watching her come to life. And I plan to do four of these which will hang side-by-side on the very long wall in my Joyful Pause Studio (nothing like jumping right in with four 24″x 48″paintings right away!).

But now I’m so curious to see what else this goddess and the other tree goddesses will reveal to me as I continue.

How this Painting Brought Me Back to Authentic Me

tea time calm

A few weeks ago I did this painting under the expert guidance of my friend and artist, Cassy Tully. I was nervous about painting something from scratch as I’d really never done it before. But the invitation for a night of pizza, friendship, and fun, which included John too, was too delicious to pass up.

At first I wasn’t sure I’d display my ” work of art.”  I was too busy inwardly criticizing myself that it wasn’t “good enough.”  But John brought our paintings home yesterday after stopping at Cassy’s studio.  Cassy had wrapped them in pretty green tissue and a blue organza ribbon.

I set it to the side and didn’t even open it. This morning when I got up, I looked at that wrapped artwork sitting on the kitchen table. I scolded myself for being so hard on myself.  Just open it, I silently said. So I did.

I smiled. I recalled the special night with John and Cassy. I felt happy and yes, even a bit proud. So I decided to put it on my kitchen counter next to my basket of tea selections and also my favorite pottery tea cup I got in Asheville, NC this past fall.

If I had chosen to continue to get lost in negativity that I wasn’t good enough, I’d miss out on the joy this painting brings to me. It’s not really about the painting.

It’s how it came into creation. It’s about how good I felt learning something new. It’s about spending time with two people I love dearly. It’s that I tried. It’s also about something I love… tea. Then added next to my tea selection and cup it added another aspect of joy for me, which is making  things cozy in my home.

This little corner in my kitchen has made me smile at least five times already today and evokes a warm feeling in my heart.

It also made me think about how hard I’ve been on myself lately and my writing. Working on my new book Joie’s Gift-Finding Purpose in the Pause has been a struggle lately– even feeling daunting some days. My inner critic has been very loud.

This painting is a reminder that like writing it is a practice.  Just showing up is enough. Though I’m not sure I want to keep showing up for painting on a regular basis, I do want to show up for my writing.  Even on days when I feel like I wrote nothing that matters or it does not seem to make sense. I remind myself good writing days will come again. They always do.

All this from unwrapping this painting today and looking at it through new eyes. Which brings me to something new I’ve evolved to over the past few months which is being more aware of my thoughts– watching them go by and then pausing and shifting them. This leads me back to what matters– and it leads me back to authentic me.

Painting the Night Away in Italy- A New Side of My Husband I Never Thought I’d See!

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Last night John and I were treated to a special painting party. Now, let me say, I can’t say I’d have ever pictured a day that we would be sitting next to each other lost in creativity. After 35 years together, I can say I fell in love in a new way with my husband last night.

As many of you may recall, John spent countless hours volunteering his time and construction talent to help build our dear friend and artist, Cassy Tully’s dream studio and framing shop. September through December were a flurry of activity making this dream come true.

Cassy studied in Italy and her shop reflects that Tuscan warm glow. Before the project began, Cassy presented John with a proposal of her dream studio dubbing it “Room to Bloom.” And bloom it did!

So were we really in Italy painting?  No, but it sure felt like it.  Enveloped between the warm yellow heavily textured walls, and archway behind us, surrounded by exquisite art, the front of Cassy’s studio looks out to the main street of Plymouth, Wisconsin. Peering outside through the large glass windows with the original stained glass that sit atop the windows, which perfectly match the Tuscan effect, cars whizzed by, and the family restaurant across the street was aglow. Next to Cassy’s studio is the new wine bar to our area called Pourvino.

Cassy got us started for our night of painting with each of us first sketching what we wanted to eventually paint. I decided on a tea cup, and of course in the color perwinkle, as that is my favorite color.

John began his sketch and we had to guess the location he was drawing. Near and dear to his heart are the many hours spent on a bench that sits in front of our home, which he spent talking with Cassy when she lived with us for the summer. Many hours of mentoring and bonding that bench holds.

Looking out into our yard from that bench and many days of sunshine, was the scenery John decided to sketch, and then paint.

I have to admit I was nervous about both sketching and painting, as I feel like I am not good at either. But with Cassy’s expertise and patience she shared with me that sketching, as well as painting is just a series of shapes.  Sure enough!  Before I knew it, I had drawn a tea cup with pencil and chalks.

John did beautifully with his sketch of our front yard and I loved peeking out of the corner of my eye to see him lost in his own little world. To see John relaxed and happy is one of my greatest treasures because he works so hard.

As I began to paint what I had now sketched, I was worried I’d make a mess of the whole thing. But again, Cassy cheered both John and I on, giving us tips as we moved through our enchanting creative venture.

As we painted away, people walked by on the sidewalk, some glancing in at us, or looking at the paintings in the windows.  Some made  their way into Pourvino. It was magical to be transported to a new place within myself, lost in thoughts of shapes, colors, and paintbrush gliding along the canvas, with the bustle of outside activity going on.

As John and I were well on our way creating our “masterpieces,” Cassy took a break and scampered outside, and down two buildings, to the best pizza place in town to pick up our to go order.

After filling our stomachs with delicious pizza, we picked up paintbrush once again to add the final touches to our paintings. True to all artists, one must sign their work, and Cassy encouraged us to do just that.

As I think about the wonderful evening last night, I can’t help but be reminded of how important experiences are. It is not the stuff in our lives that count, but the moments that carry our hearts through each day. It is what makes us rich. Rich in love. Rich in friendship. Rich in what matters.

Today, I count my blessings for feeling like the richest woman on earth after painting the night away.