It has been a long week… I chose to not first share with family or friends that Frankie had a tumor on her back leg. This is a picture of her after her “bump” removal.
Last week Wednesday I took Frankie to the vet and was told the petite pea size tumor on her leg could be a benign histiocytomas tumor. But that it could also be a mast cell tumor and could be malignant which is categorized into three different grades. Click here for more information http://vetsurgerycentral.com/mct.htm.
Part of the reason I at first decided not to share this news with anyone is, because I thought if I didn’t give any negative energy or thought to it that the results would turn out in our favor. Then I met a friend of mine a few days later for breakfast. This friend is very spiritual and has taught me alot about surrendering to, and accepting whatever comes my way (actually I have a few friends like this and they are such incredible, wonderful guiding lights in my life). I shared with her the news about Frankie’s tumor and told her I was not telling anyone because I didn’t want any negative energy surrounding it. She understood where I was coming from but she also said it was okay for me to feel scared. It was such a relief for me to hear her say that. I try very hard to be a positive person and put good energy out into the world and I felt by doing that it would result in a good outcome for Frankie. I still believe that, but I also realized I was not owning the fear of being scared. Once I did, I realized I could handle what the outcome would be. I also realized it would be okay to share that fear with close friends and family and ask for their prayers… that puts positive energy out into the world and also gives us support when we most need it.
It also went back to my bigger purpose of why I have had certain challenges in my life and what they have taught me. From the loss of Cassie to cancer, to Frankie’s paralysis, I found a deeper meaning and a reason why I am here in this space and time. Through every challenge we must remain open to accepting whatever the outcome is going to be, knowing we will evolve and learn once again.
When I retrieved my message from my phone today and it was Dr. Bohn from the vet clinic, I felt I heard a positive note to his asking me to call him. As I dialed the phone my heart was beating outside of my chest. As the phone was ringing, I took a deep breath and asked for divine guidance. The news was good and Frankie’s tumor was benign. Hallelujah! Hallelujah!
As I think about our upcoming school visits next month, the challenge we just endured will give more power and inspiration to our message… and that is why I was presented with this little bump in the road. The road is smooth once again for moving forward. But even during the long week of waiting for the news, I stayed focused on my purpose and surrendering to whatever the lesson was going to be.