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My Projection of Fear

Posted by Barbara Techel

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I updated my Facebook cover yesterday to this photo above of Kylie and Gidget. Lots of awww’s and priceless comments were made which made me smile.

But it also sprung up a thought for me. I love seeing these two snuggled together. It’s a welcome sight these days. One I’ve not seen in many years.

When Frankie became paralyzed, Kylie was only six months old. I was a nervous wreck that Frankie would rupture another disc and so often I found myself saying no to Kylie when she tried to play or snuggle with Frankie.

Then with Joie, I was a bit more relaxed, but still cautious.

While yes, we have to be careful with these little ones so prone to disc disease, we also have to find a balance of not living on the edge of “what if” all the time.

With Gidget being my third doxie with IVDD, I understand more clearly that this is my projection of fear.

Being aware that this is my issue and not letting fear get in the way is half the battle. While it’s good to be cautious, I also want Gidget and Kylie to feel happy and comfortable with each other. As you can tell by the photo that appears to be the case. Grin.

As I mentioned yesterday, I’ll be going to a weekend training, this weekend. I’m putting into practice not letting fear get in the way of leaving Gidget behind knowing she is in good hands.

John has been awesome learning how to express Gidget’s bladder the last few days, and he is actually doing quite well at it like he’s always done this!

I also have a gal who has her own business taking care of people’s pets who will be stopping over a few times to help with Gidget while I’m away. Gidget did very well with her, and she with Gidget, which helps lessen my fear.

I know it’s natural for me to have this fear because of my past experience in being away and then Frankie became paralyzed. But I also know I want to surrender and let go of living in that fear when I want to step out on my own now and then.

Gidget is once again being a great teacher for me with this. And again, the very reason I call her my Buddha dog. She helps me to be still and move through any fear or doubt and put my faith in the hands of God/Spirit.

Our Deepest Fear Is Not That We Are Inadequate

Posted by Barbara Techel

I received the following quote  today (below)  from my dear friend, Julie.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’  Actually, who are you NOT to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.  There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do.  We were born to make manifest the Glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” –Excerpt from Marianne Williamson’s book “A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles”

I was touched beyond words that Julie said when she heard this verse during a movie she was watching that she instantly thought of me, and she shared with me that this is what I have taught her. She said that by letting my light shine and being me and believing in who I am, it has inspired her.

I write about how I played “small” often in my younger years because of my own insecurities (in my upcoming book) and didn’t grow tall until I was in my early 40’s. I wish I could change that it took me until a few years ago to do that, but I can’t regret the past– I can only move forward.

When we truly live into our authenticity we never know who we will affect around us, just like Marianne says. But we must do it because we are a piece of God- every one of us. Whether you call it God, , the Universe or higher source, it does not matter.  We are here to shine our light- to be the best we can be. And I think at the core of each and every one of us, we want to leave a mark on this world- to know that we mattered.  From my experience in the past 10 years and all I’ve learned since then, that when we let our light shine it truly is how we leave our mark on the world– and when we do that, the Universe automatically supports us.

I recently began an 8-week course that has me giving thought to my purpose (as I move forward with the release of my book) as one of the assignments. One of my purposes (of which I have many!) I’m writing about is how I want to help others not be afraid to live their own truth and to know and understand that joy is their birthright. I was having my doubts of how I was going to actually do just that. So there is no coincidence that I got this verse from my friend today, reminding me that this is part of my purpose…. and by just being me I am already living that purpose. Thank you to my friend, Julie for this reminder.

Now go out and shine your light! Each and every one of you!  And just imagine, what our world will be like when we all do just that. Brilliant, beautiful, and at peace.