I’d not even noticed until this afternoon. But after running errands and returning to my writing cottage I felt this nudge to look outside my window— the one next to my writing desk.

Gidget passed away May 11, 2019 and when the first snowfall came I felt some grief when it snowed enough to cover the stone heart marker of where we laid her to rest.

But I remember reminding myself that even though I couldn’t see the marker that she was, and will always be, in my heart.

Yesterday I made an announcement on my Facebook and Instagram pages of the release of my latest memoir, I’m Fine Just the Way I Am. The minute I hit the publish button I felt tears rush to the surface.

As I’ve said often along the way, I’ve learned that we are always releasing, integrating and healing. This book has felt vulnerable for me to share in many ways. But my tears were a mixture of just another sweet release and celebration that I did it.

It has been a full week and last night I had to remind myself to take a deep breath. I was tired and so I honored that I really needed to rest and went to bed early.

After rushing around again today I was looking forward to returning to my writing cottage to chill out. And that’s when I felt the nudge to look outside the window.

I smiled when I realized why I was feeling called to do so. The stone heart marker is almost visible once again. And then I knew it was Gidget who had been nudging me. 

I said out loud, “Oh Gidge girl, I love you.”

And when I looked a bit closer I noticed a dried leaf that took on the shape of a heart. You can see it within the stone marker on the bottom left of the photo above.

To me, this was symbolic of Gidget, the protector of my heart as she was in life and now in spirit. My heart within hers and hers within mine for infinity.

Oh, how I love when the universe presents us with these precious gifts.

xo,

Barbara