personal growth

What I’m Taking with Me Into 2020

 
It was in 2015 that I began to be nudged to acknowledge and honor my inner Child that was wounded. This nudge became more intense over the next three years until it came to a full head-on moment in the winter of 2018 when I felt like I wanted to die instead of dealing with the pain.
 
That journey – one of healing – is chronicled in my new memoir coming out in early 2020.
 
As I picked this oracle card this morning, I knew what I’d be taking with me into the New Year.
 
For as long as I can remember, and I’ve no doubt many of you can relate too, I was so afraid to make mistakes. What if I was wrong? What if I looked stupid? What if no one believed me?
 
But the more I listened to that part of me (my ego), the more my inner Child felt misunderstood and abandoned and the more she cried out for me to please lovingly and gently attend to her.
 
And so I take with me into 2020 what I’ve learned the past four years of deep inner work, loving that little girl within me, listening to her, acknowledging her, holding her, and most of all, finally believing her.
 
And it’s perfectly okay to make mistakes – as they are guiding posts to what we can change in our lives for the better – and it frees us from this endless and tireless drive to be perfect – which society will continue to try to put upon us – until more and more of us say no more.
 
As I’ve written in my memoir and truly believe…I Am a work in progress…we all are…and this means I will still make mistakes. But I take with me an evolved understanding that I have a choice to look at these moments as opportunities and course correct.
 
The more I love that inner child, the more I want to dance and twirl and allow more fun and spontaneity into my life and continue to be true to the heart of who I am.
 
xo,
Barbara
 
Card from: The Wild Offering Oracle by Tosha Silver

Animal Oracle Guidance for the Last Few Weeks of 2019

 

I’d been waiting for this new deck for quite some time and they finally arrived last week. Yippee! So I asked the cards for all of us:

What animal ally is guiding us as we move through these final weeks of 2019?

You can read below or listen to the reading here on SoundCloud.

I’ll admit I was hoping to pull a cute and cuddly animal to share with you. When scorpion presented itself I hesitated whether or not I should go with it.

But alas, after simmering in scorpion medicine, I believe this is just the animal that will guide us in the most beneficial way. 

As I looked at the card I heard, “It’s true, sometimes life stings, but this is where the real value lies. Don’t look away.”

It’s in those goals we perhaps didn’t achieve this year that we wished we did, the emotions that come up for us over the holidays that are challenging, or the feelings of regret or loss, that we can learn from.

We can wallow in the uncomfortable feelings of those situations, or we can take the sting as an opportunity to be gentle with ourselves and look at how we can resolve to change and take what we learned to move forward in a more meaningful way.

There really is no such thing as failure, but rather just information for us to evolve in a new way.

How are you going to direct your life right now so that you move into 2020 with a new perspective? The number 9 on the card is symbolic of endings, so this is a great time to review and set intentions of how you will move forward.

You can do this! Without the sting of life, we wouldn’t grow, and so let Scorpion walk beside you as you boldly accept all that life entails as part of the journey of living here on planet earth.

xo,

Barbara

 

 

Card from: The Ark Animal Tarot and Oracle Deck by Bernadette King

 

Honoring Our Completions

Me and Wooly Mammoth – Made out of over 1,000 pieces of rebar

In this week’s video oracle reading and guidance session (below) I talk about something I’ve been thinking about lately and that is completion cycles in our lives. John and I just completed 35-years of marriage and now move into our 36th year together. It feels like just yesterday that we were saying our vows to each other.

To celebrate we ventured off on a mini getaway this past Saturday to a town about 2 1/2 hours from us and we stayed at a cozy upper flat of an Airbnb. On the way home, we stopped at the Horicon Marsh which is both a national and state wildlife refuge area. It also has the largest freshwater cattail marsh in the United States. There is an educational center and outside of it is this wooly mammoth sculpture that I just had to have my picture taken with. Isn’t it amazing?!

Celebrating 35 years of marriage, completing a big part of the process of writing and editing my book and all the small details that go with it before sending it off to the design team which I did today, plus thoughts of the year coming to a close has really had me thinking about the completion of cycles …

No doubt you are too as the year winds down, so I hope you find this oracle reading and guidance session helpful. xo, Barbara

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